Obedience vs. Passion?
So it's been a while since I've updated - the last month has been surprisingly busy, despite the fact that I don't go out as often. Somehow, the hours just seem to fly by anyway - perhaps it's the old age beginning to set in, haha.
Anyway..........a lot has been on my mind lately. It's funny, every time I am thinking things over in my head, I always think about how I'd type it out in a blog. But when my fingers finally reach the keyboard, I find that I'm at a loss for words.
Basically, to sum it all up, I've determined that Australia just won't be in the cards for me this year. But now I'm wondering whether or not to apply to go on missions with Interserve. A few weeks ago I was so certain that I would. Now..........maybe my mother's worries and doubts got to me. Maybe I just realized how much I like my life now.
I've finished 80% of the application. Gotten the TCBC mission board's approval. Gotten Rev. Wong's recommendation. But then there's that gnawing feeling that.........I don't want to do it. I like my life now.
But then, what if God has called me? Shouldn't I answer? Shouldn't I be obedient to what He has asked me to do? But then, shouldn't I also be passionate about doing this?
*sigh* Still praying about it.........
1 Comments:
Hey hey! Funny that I stumbled onto your blog ever so randomly!
Just thought I'd drop a line and respond to your question of going abroad to do m1ss1ons.
I think it's great to have a desire to do things that you've been called to, even greater to desire a passion for His work. But I think what he desires most from any of us, more than the doing His will, is simply for us to seek Him.
Sometimes I get so caught up in trying to make a decision that I forget about the purpose of the decision itself; to walk with Him. That's what our lives are about right? His first and most important desire is to know us.
Ps 37:4 says - "delight in Him and He will give you the desires of your heart."
Perhaps what we all need to be looking for, more so than a trip, work or calling, is simply for Him himself. I find it awesome that it specifically says "delight in him" and not pray or talk.
To me, it implies seeking the joy that comes with being with the L0rd, and He will provide the passion for you to do His work. I love our G0d!
Best of luck in your search, Grace!
Will be lifting you up!
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